Well, since I'm pretty damn sure I'm goin' to hell anyway...
[He's only being halfway facetious. He's not really religious, but that Catholic guilt has a tendency of sticking with you.]
So he was undercover? He fuck you over?
[He doesn't necessarily trust cops. Then again, he also knows a lot of crooked cops, who wouldn't be in on a job to bust people so much as to reap the rewards for themselves.]
[All that forced praying, a real good, religious Mom that still died anyway changes his mind.]
He was doing his job.
[As an undercover...]
I stuck my head out for him, protected him. I can't say how it turned out how it did between us but it did. I get that anybody on the outside could point fingers but it's no one's business. For all that went down, I answer to him and he answers to me. Not a perfect start, you know?
Well, y'know, I figure I'll be in good company. Half of the guys I know're probably gonna be burnin' in hell right alongside me.
[He used to think he was the only bad guy around. Lately, he's been thinking that maybe there're a lot more bad guys out there than he thinks. Which kinda makes him think that maybe he isn't as bad as he thought he was.]
That's good. I'm glad you have each other.
[He doesn't know if he's ever had someone like that. At least, not someone he's that close to that he also feels romantically about.]
[Let him just light a cigarette to hide the fact that he's about to be overly emotional.]
... means a hell of a lot more than hearin' it from most other people, that's all. The last time anyone said that kinda thing to me, he was lyin' through his teeth. But I don't think you're like that.
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[He's only being halfway facetious. He's not really religious, but that Catholic guilt has a tendency of sticking with you.]
So he was undercover? He fuck you over?
[He doesn't necessarily trust cops. Then again, he also knows a lot of crooked cops, who wouldn't be in on a job to bust people so much as to reap the rewards for themselves.]
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[All that forced praying, a real good, religious Mom that still died anyway changes his mind.]
He was doing his job.
[As an undercover...]
I stuck my head out for him, protected him. I can't say how it turned out how it did between us but it did. I get that anybody on the outside could point fingers but it's no one's business. For all that went down, I answer to him and he answers to me. Not a perfect start, you know?
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[He used to think he was the only bad guy around. Lately, he's been thinking that maybe there're a lot more bad guys out there than he thinks. Which kinda makes him think that maybe he isn't as bad as he thought he was.]
That's good. I'm glad you have each other.
[He doesn't know if he's ever had someone like that. At least, not someone he's that close to that he also feels romantically about.]
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It took work. No, it takes work. It's not out of the blue. No one waved a wand.
[Not even in a place filled with curses or magic.]
I think you're worth it, Jimmy. You're worth the work. Hope you can figure that out for yourself.
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[Let him just light a cigarette to hide the fact that he's about to be overly emotional.]
... means a hell of a lot more than hearin' it from most other people, that's all. The last time anyone said that kinda thing to me, he was lyin' through his teeth. But I don't think you're like that.
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No, I'm not like that.
[Not right now and not with Jimmy.]
I say it because you need to hear it. And I'll say it more because you're a shitty listener.
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[He's listening now, though. Mostly.]
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[Which could be why despite frustration he keeps...on...trying... Look at him on the phone this long for god's sake.]
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[Immediate and genuine encouragement. Goddamn if he can't try pick up the guy when he's down so low.]
I'll check up on you later, brother.
[He can't bring himself to say that he's welcome because White now feels uncertain of how much good it all did in a short amount of time.]