Sure is. Wondering and dwelling though are apples and oranges. I know it's all fresh with your wife. Just don't go on and on like you died too. No matter how she felt for you in the end, you think she'd want you with that weight on you?

[Jimmy is the father of her son. She was someplace he had been recently. It couldn't have all been a doomed family photo.]

Well. We didn't talk about anything for awhile. And that was really good until things all exploded.

[Finding out he was a cop for one. Sometimes he still has a piss poor time with himself knowing what he did when he found out.]

I'd recommend starting small. Let her know you've done some things you regret, you're changing up your lifestyle. That's honest. Gauge things on how well she takes the little bits.